Traditionalist

"I want to be someone's wife one day....... "

Those words, the honesty they were conveyed with at that moment in time, the simplicity of it all startled me. What was even more confounding was the bearer of the statement.

Here is a lady. Top of her class (herein at this moment in time making reference to her brains and not her sassy self). Which reminds me, why does top of her class have to invoke references in respect to sexuality and not intelligence? Seems intelligence as a  virtue was thrown out of the window when women realised that they could use their sexuality to manipulate members of the male species, a good number of whom have been overrun by the testosterone flowing in their system. It is even confusing when the lady happens to be intelligent and beautiful. Confusing for both genders it seems because the notion that a woman could be both intelligent and beautiful is impossible has been inculcated into the hearts of humanoids.

Yes I said it: humanoids.  Objects taking on the behaviour of human beings but their identity as human beings has been dissipated by twitter standards, Facebook standards, instagram, blogger and WordPress and the latest generation of identity-orphaned feminists. The said group of social technocrats suggesting that a lifelong institution of intimate companionship is for the weak and illiterate shaol minded folk. I am no longer certain that beings exist as an outright majority amongst homo sapiens sapiens now that a new generation of believers has cropped up. Believers who believe in anything else but the truth. Cultured to reject the truth that gives frame to their identity and take on every wave of backbone-less dogma that comes their way. Ingesting it all like infants whose noses have been pinched shut by their mothers in order that they may involuntarily swallow the syrup prescribed by the physician.

Beautiful, intelligent and willing to explore one of life's greatest gift to mankind:

The Boulevard of unfulfilled dreams

Our eyes met, but only for a brief moment.
Glances exchanged past the bars of captivity,
Did she notice me? Did she even notice that I was around?

Days of daydreaming preceeded nights of terror.
Not the kind of nightmares that involved witches and ghosts,
Dreams in which the tormentor is your object of desire.
Sweet dreams of oneness, but broken realities

My silence, my weakness,
I couldn't muster up the courage to talk,
Nothing beyond hello.
My silence my strength,
To be able to hold all the raging emotions in,
To resist the urge to reveal my heart.

That was then. Ten years ago.
All was forgotten, but not all was lost.
Till the day our eyes met again.
And the key to the cell was turned,
Locking myself inside once again.

Chance v. Purpose Part 2

One of the greatest tragedies in life is the lack of will to follow through your thoughts.

Every physical manifestation must be preceded by a mental creation. That is to say, everything that exists physically, as created by man, must have been initially conceived in the mind. Our clothes, houses, phones, cutlery computers, roads, bicycles, planes and guns. Virtually everything that is man-made. The mind of man is a very powerful thing. The creative power resident in the mind of man is unlike that in any other animal or natural being for that matter. It is the law of the universe that all things created in the physical must first be created in the mind. 

Imagination precedes logic.

Imagination is the factory responsible for coming up with new concepts. It conceives an impossible thought and breathes life into that through inspiration. If you talk to an artist, an entrepreneur or a trendsetter  they will inform you that imagination is key. Imagination is the driving force of creation. The spark behind innovation.Once in a while our minds conceive what may seem to be the impossible, from television sets that emit smells to loads of money to dating that girl who seems to be way out of your league. Imagination is important especially if the latter is to be made manifest.

Logic informs to a great extent, the path to be taken from imagination to the physical manifestation of that thought. Logic is the superhighway that connects these two points and in occasions where logic may fail, the creative process usually takes over. The creative process can happen to be on an occasion or two, defiant to the already pre-existing logical processes in play. The creative process is not the preserve of a few men, but an option available to all men. However, not all men have the courage to take the path when the opportunity arises, and those who choose to follow this path when it comes calling, are often labelled as madmen. Some may even term the creative process a miracle. This is especially where  those pursuing this new path pursue it aggressively and seem to be so sure of what they are doing yet there are no predecessors to validate his actions. In a lot of instances, this does not end up well, but tin those instances it does, a new process is created. The risks are greater but the rewards are higher. It is the price the unknown demands form all men who dare to pursue this path.

Science.

Science is man's way of understanding the superhighway talked about before. Science is a great tool that tries to explain the origin of things. No actually, tries to reasonably deduce the origin of all things created. Science is brilliant. It is systematic and reasonable. Science obeys rules and tests truths. It tries to logically arrange information and facts in a manner that could be best understood by human beings. However, it has one main Achilles heel. Science does not have the power to conceive. Science unfortunately or fortunately, is a servant of imagination. It is a servant of that which creates, a tool in the hands of a creative master. Logic in the same way is a servant of imagination. It is a servant of vision and could never become the master to the vision. Like in the same way, it is not enough to be on  a highway. There is no glory on being on Mombasa road if you are not heading to a destination that the road is responsible for linking you to. No one ever says they went for a trip to Thika superhighway. When someone calls me and I say I am on Thika road, the next question that will obviously follow is, where is Lelli heading to?

Creation v. Evolution

Evolution is a factor of creation. Evolution has no power to be original. It has no power to conceive something totally out of the blues. When mosquitoes evolve to resist certain strains of medicine, they do not become completely new creatures. They instead become mutated mosquitoes. Not moths or fireflies. It is only a creative power that can come up with a radically different species. Science, or in this case, the big bang, could not create. If it even exists, then the big bang must be the brainchild of a superior being. One that imagined and crafted the unthinkable and made it happen. 

At this point, it does not appear to me, that a tool (science) is capable of purposefully reasoning out such an intricate plan and execute it to the brilliance we now term as nature. It is illogical that a highway should be the centre of attention in the universe. and I say all this in respect to the universal law that every physical manifestation is preceded by a mental creation. Science obeys laws and rarely contradicts itself. I would highly recommend not studying science if that is the best excuse that a person could come up with the origin of creation. 

However, if science and not imagination is responsible for creation, it would just prove that science is a god with a mind and a superior being. Either way, we are all here because someone or something with a mind came up with a mental image of creation. . 

Chance v. Purpose part 1

One of the greatest tragedies in life is the lack of will to follow through your thoughts.
Men are very interesting creatures. We are blessed with the ability to reason, an ability that separates us from the rest of creation or in this case, animals. I doubt if plants posses the capacity to think, though I do not doubt they have the capacity to respond to a voice. If you doubt me, talk to a dedicated farmer. If you talk to enough of them, you will realize that some of them do engage in a peculiar behaviour. Some do talk to their plants in the same manner a lover would talk to his beloved. Always encouraging and affirming them as though they have been caught up in a Utopian state where man and plant understand each other. It is therefore not a wonder when God said let there be and there was. For you see, all creation is tuned to hear the voice of its creator. The prerogative as to whether to obey the voice or not however lies with only one animal.
Back to the subject of thinking and reason. Animals and men alike do think though there has been questions surrounding the applicability of that statement to all men. Thinking simply put, is the ability of a brain to follow through a process from one point to the next logical point. The ability to follow it through to a conclusion, especially a logical and relevant one is a debate for another day.
Thinking however cannot be dealt with without paying attention to a second person called instinct. Instinct is your first reaction in response to a situation. Instinct is interesting because it is not premeditated. No one has to have a plan for instinct. It just happens. The driving force of instinct is survival and self preservation. Like running away from danger or coiling up into a defensive position when anticipating an attack. Instinct pays no attention to thought, it shows no respect to time. Both animals and human beings are instinctive. Animals operate via instinct, usually uncontrolled instinct most of the time and some men fall under suspicion of being in this category too. The difference being that men can suppress their instincts through training over time while animals don't seem to be able to possess such willpower. They are at times able to override instinct and replace it with thought. This control is known as REASON.
Reason is the ability to govern both instinct and thought. The ability to choose which path to follow when looking for the most sensible logical conclusion. Reason is God's gift to man that has enabled man to dominate the planet for millenniums now. I say God's gift because speed lies at the centre of survival. Reason takes away whatever window of time that was opened by the arms of instinct. It is counter-survival. Anything counter survival will lead to only two outcomes: life or death. You can die from not taking advantage of the small window of opportunity or you can live by ignoring the window and building your door. Anyone who has attempted to make passage through a window will assure you that the door is always a more comfortable route. It may take a longer time to create it but once done, you will not desire to use the window again.
Reason has capacitated man with one important strength that lies at the centre of humankind: the need to live, not just survive. Living is an option, survival is a need. There is so much more to life than struggling to remain atop the food chain. Evolution and natural selection has tuned our minds to respond to instinct, it could never teach reason. It could teach thought but not critical analysis. It could teach survival but never living. Living is propelled by purpose, survival is propelled by death. The need to avoid death is the driving force of survival and human beings were made for more than that. Human beings were created to be more than creatures at the top of the food chain.
When do we stop evolving and start living?

Reincarnation

Lately, I have been doing an in depth philosophical study on great musicians and why they are considered as greats. My area of study has been largely centered on musicians from the latter half of the 20th century since music progressed through several phases in a speed that hadn't been experienced before. I have ignored the 21st century because the last two decades haven't really offered us anything new musically speaking. I am a musician from the 21st century so do not conclude I am hating for the sake of being a critic. Even the Rolling Stones top 100 musicians of all times chart seems to agree with me.

Some of the most fascinating musicians from that era in my opinion included James Brown, Ray Charles and Bob Marley but in regards to this particular time, James and Bob. They were very sharp musicians who gave the world new music. Bob introduced reggae to the world, James was the godfather of funk and rap (which led to hip hop) and Ray gave us rhythm and blues. However, above and beyond that, Marley and James Brown preached a universal message. (Stevie Wonder also comes in here). All these musicians did sing about love, which is the most resounding theme in music, but they did sing about something even greater, and that is socioeconomic injustice. Bob sang about freeing Africa and mental slavery. James Brown addressed black freedom in the USA. And it was evident from their music and live performances that they were very passionate about the message they preached. They knew what they wanted to say and knew that the world must listen to what they had to say whether they liked it or not.

In Kenya today, we classify music into two: Gospel and secular music. I believe it is the same for a large part of the world. Normally, Gospel music is sung in reference to an Almighty God while secular music is in some ways anti-God in its thematic expressions. These may take the form of gloating and sexual innuendos that usually include fornication and vocal porno to some degree. Some sing about love but not in a manner you would gladly play as a church presentation or in the presence of a spiritual leader. The previously mentioned characters would fall into the secular music category without a doubt.

However, there is the theme of socioeconomic justice that is not so popular in mainstream music circles. Those who have made it part of their musical philosophy; their life philosophy have made a great contribution to the world. Once a musician touches on this theme, the person transcends above the limits of categorized music and becomes something more than a musician. The person becomes a political ruler in the gates. The person becomes an ambassador for justice. S/he no longer flies on the same altitude as the rest. For justice isn't the property of religion. It is part of a human being. If you do not believe it is part of a human being, then you must believe empathy is part of the human being. Empathy simply put,  is the cog upon which the wheels of justice rotate on. It is part and parcel of man's humanity.

The musicians above, though secular, managed to transcend above the Gospel and secular limitations and set a bar above that which was already in play. That is why they were truly great. They carried powerful political messages that people could relate to. That is indeed greatness for they addressed that which was beyond their own self centered needs and little personal agendas. I pray at some point, there may be a reincarnation of such selflessness in the near future.

Architects of beauty

Beauty is probably one of the most misused abstract words of this century. Probably because beautiful means something different to everyone. Like the way a truck may appear beautiful to one due but ugly to another girl. The compass opposite of the word also happens to be one of the most misused words of this century. People sometimes just do not know what consists as ugly. Anything goes so long as the point in hand is driven across.

However, the greatest injustice I have seen in relation to the above two words has been the coarse use of the words around ladies and especially by ladies themselves. People once again lack respect for the difference between beautiful and attractive and in the same breathe, lack respect for the difference between ugly and unattractive. Most attractive girls have been termed at first glance as being beautiful but turn out to be as hideous as the devil himself. On the other hand, unattractive girls by societal standards have been termed as ugly with little regard for the beautiful condition of their hearts. It baffles me at times the manner in which people use the words ugly and beautiful in such a superficial manner, thereby denying the words the weight they deserve. I am sure if the words could speak for themselves (it is an ironic statement already), they would take a century to vent out their disappointment with the human being’s inability to rightly use the previously mentioned words.

However, the greatest injustice I have seen in the use of these words is when a woman calls herself ugly because of what she saw in the mirror that morning. It is disappointing to see women beat themselves down and call themselves ugly. No, actually it is despicable. It is horrifying for a beautiful woman to call herself ugly based on physical features whose optical value diminishes with age. Strangely enough, I have never heard a man call himself ugly yet some women allow the very men who label themselves as ugly to slap a label on the woman’s forehead terming her as ugly.

I was watching the opening episode of Slim Possible season five and it was sad that a majority of the women present wanted to lose weight because it defined their net outlook. I do understand physical beauty is important to a woman but it is far from the importance of the woman. Strangely enough, I have never heard a man call himself ugly yet some women allow the very men who label themselves as ugly to slap a label on the woman’s forehead terming her as ugly.

Women must understand the world can define what is unattractive or attractive and try to forcefully indoctrinate the ideas down a woman’s throat but they must understand that they wield a greater power than that which the world wields. The decision to be ugly or not to be ugly; to be beautiful or not to be solely lies within the boundaries of the person’s mind. In other words, you are ugly if you want to be and you are beautiful if you want to be. That decision solely lies with you my dear sister, not with the television, your favourite fashion magazine or the clique of hot girls in school.

Let me take it even a step further and say that you are as beautiful as you want to be and you are as ugly as the limits of your mind can set. God gave us a beautiful gift and that gift is this, whereas you may lack the power to predetermine the extent of your physique, you have unlimited creativity and power to create your own version of beautiful. You are as beautiful as you can imagine and vice versa. No one can make that decision for you except yourself. God has given you the power to be the architect of your own beauty. The tools are at hand but are you willing to design that beautiful creature the way you want it to look like or are you going to buy another copy from the hypermarket

Poetic Crusade

What does it mean to be a lazy thinker?
What does it mean to be a tolerant thinker?

Is it when I set aside my convictions,
Or when I set aside my religious dogma?

When I elevate my law degree,
Or theories from Karl Marx and John Stuart Mills??

Tell me what does it mean not to be a lazy thinker.

I was told stating my stand based on what my Bible has convinced me to be true is being lazy.
I was told that I must argue intellectually without bringing in my beliefs.
I was told having a personal opinion based on my Bible is lazy thinking.

At least that is what they made me understand.
That the active thinker has no religious convictions.

That I am a lazy thinker and that the non-religious thinker is an active thinker.

But I have news for you.
I believe that the lazy thinker is the person convinced personal convictions based on faith have no place in the society.

The lazy thinker is too lazy to figure out how faith affects every facet of society.

The lazy thinker thinks that the best way to think is without conviction.

Yet a man without conviction is a spineless being. He has nothing to live for, no purpose.

The lazy thinker is mad when a Christian declares his faith and criticizes it as intolerence;
While yet celebrating an atheist when he declares his lack of any religious conviction and labels it as tolerant, an active thinker.

As if the two men have done two different acts.

As if the two bleed differently.

It is lazy to think without foundational conviction,
As if you are a dead leaf to be blown around by every wind of philosophy and doctrine.

Tell me, what does it mean to be a lazy thinker??